48: New Year Resolution... ala my way...

Another new year is here... and maybe a new beginning is what people see it as...me? Oh yeah... same to same...

Often people are ready with their New Year resolutions by the time its 1st January... okay I know there can be many who may think what resolutions...?? It’s a childish thing to think of it...!!! Alright point taken and accepted that not all do resolve to do something... and amongst those who do them very few actually follow them...that’s universal truth too!!! But let’s assume for some time that people do make resolutions when New Year starts...

So on similar lines....I have made a resolution this year (first time in mah life...) and which is something that I intend to follow...!!! Now people who follow this blog would know about my fascination with zodiac signs and Librans in particular. Well, why did I mention it here? Because, my resolution has something to do with it...!!! With zodiac signs..??? OMG... does she mean she is gonna learn astrology or something??? (No no... I don’t want to torture my blog visitors more ...don’t worry...). Well it has to do with one particular zodiac sign-Libra and their famous indecisiveness!!!

You have full right to ask me this ... Why is it that I keep on hammering things about Libran indecisiveness without sending out any disclaimer like “no relation to anyone living or dead...” that’s because it has relation to someone living in this goddamn world...and mind you no points for guessing who is he/she since...YOU KNOW HER (yea she is she...)!!!

Okay coming back to my resolution...so what is it that I want to do??

I don’t want to get up every day and spend some eternal 15 minutes time staring at my wardrobe as if every outfit I keep my eyes on is something worth giving a try today... (That does mean I actually have enough clothes that I won’t actually need to buy clothes for next one year at least...) but then it’s not about variety or quantity of clothes which is an issue... but my confusion..!!! Confusion since every outfit seems perfect for the day and I can’t quite decide which one I should wear... ok but the final result is- I almost always tend to wear whatever is easily accessible to my hands at the very top of the heap although I spend eternal 15 minutes admiring all the others ... that also means the one kept at the bottomest bottom of the heap (mera number kab aayega)... never actually gets the chance...(I suddenly feel like a villainous soul who is depriving someone of its food, clothing and shelter...) And the endest end result is I am always late for the office bus.... Aargghh...and I am still figuring out what is the reason for it??? If you could figure it out... let me know.... :P

I don’t want to go to an apparel shop and filter 2 of the dresses, which I may have liked from whole lot of bundle that I may have gone through....then try both of them in the trial room... and get super duper confused as to which I should buy, considering the fact that I am here to buy only one and not 2... And then the end result is- it gives the salesman an opportunity to say a dialogue-“usme kya hai madam... dono le lo...” and then although I am there to buy only one, the possibility of maybe I can buy both if I have liked them, starts taking shape in my grey matter...!!! Okay now if the person who is shopping with me is sound enough to say “c’mon no need of two... I think the blue one is perfect...” (Blue is my favourite color...), then I definitely climb back to my sanity and purchase the blue one..!! So the point is although I know blue is my favourite and it would look good... I get confused between choices... Aarrgghh... I am still figuring out why I take almost always more than 3 hours for shopping??? If you could figure it out... let me know :P

Okay so the main funda is –“Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you(in this case ME...) out” (I have kinda copied that line from the FUROBIKER’S TAGLINE...: P:P:P) So I have thought about doing something for this day to day wearing out...


But then why torture Librans here??? It’s because till date I had been in the perpetual mood of accepting the fact - oh its okay for Librans to be indecisive since it’s in their constitution... BUT NOT ANYMORE....!!! That means yes I am Libran....


The eternal Libran (ME...) has made a resolution that no more dwelling in the jungles of confusion... The resolution is to think over possibilities... analyse and take decisions. The resolution is to arrive at the decisions..!!! The resolution is to decide the next day’s outfit the previous night and no more spending 15 minutes of everyday morning life!!! The resolution is to think prior hand which colours I want to shop for and look out for possibilities in that space only...this way it will help to find out things which are necessary than things which are luxuries...this I say because I already have many blue dresses...and frankly I don’t need any more!!!


There is a very famous quote by St. Francis of Assisi- “Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible”. Okay and now I completely want to believe at this moment that there shall come a day when I would be doing that impossible...!!!

And yes I intend to stick to this...!!! Start by taking daily smaller decisions with finesse and there shall come a day when u shall arrive at that bigger something... and that line has already made me to start imagining some bigger decisions like- sitting in IPL auction and thinking of how much to raise my bid for Sachin...(hehehe.. he is my fav player...) and kinds...!!! So you got the drift..!!!!

And now most important how am I gonna track whether I was on track with this resolution...??? I don’t know... I am not gonna keep a data sheet to enter everyday decisions and my successes as I find it very very nerdy!!! Because you don’t need a piece of datasheet to tell you that you were successful or not!!! Because if you were successful ... you will know it, it’s that simple!!!

So maybe follow-on to this post can happen this year end...to declare my success or failure... but till then let me just say it loud and clear... I intend to follow my resolution!!! AMEN ... to that... :D


(Btw...I can also make a resolution to not pull legs of Librans anymore... my legs are already long... :P)

38: Ground Zero- the battle continues...

Ground zero –is sacred to most Americans. Sacred, not in religious sense but in humanity sense. Grounds, where once stood the very famous twin towers of World Trade centre, epitomize the loss of thousands of near and dear ones who lost their relations to one of the world’s most tragic attack on humanism.

An attack which, not only  saw a nascent militant group by name Al-Qaida become notorious for its gruesome and heinous crimes but also gave rise to sheer hatred for another word -‘ISLAM’!!!

Chicago Tribune quotes-“Our Constitution guarantees the freedom of all faiths. Not just the ones most of us are comfortable having as neighbors. Not just the ones that attract the most members or the ones whose faith traditions resemble our own, but all faiths. Yet, the notion of an Islamic center two blocks away from a site many New Yorkers view as sacred ground is sure to produce visceral responses”



Post 9/11 many citizens of US who were Muslim by religion were tortured and harassed under the reason of ‘doubt’.  Here I recall a movie by title ‘Khuda kay liye’ which I happened to see couple of years back. It was based on the living condition of Muslim people in US and how they were picked up from their houses simply on the basis of doubt and questioned and tortured for months in the cell… Indeed, what happened in US on 9/11 was horrendous act of crime but what happened after that was equally horrendous for sure!

Nobody can justify the act of crime meted out to Americans but neither can one understand the abandonment of a particular religion on sheer basis of few people stooping low on their morals and going on rampage destroying peace and harmony in the society. Society is built on the foundation of assimilation and acceptance. If any one particular person/group tries to rule and create his monopoly, democracy gets compromised. And that is something which is precisely happening in America and for that reason in world over.

Americans on other hand are taking this a notch higher by turning it into a political drama. There are thousands of people protesting against the mosque saying-‘Islam is not a religion... it’s a political and militarist group’. Forget about civilians, there are people like Sarah Palin who is busy giving her anti-Islam bytes as well.  There were demonstrations that happened in US where people wore "Vote for Jesus" T-shirts and carried signs that said "No Sharia law for USA”.  The mosque opponents are referring to this as not a constitutional issue but rather one of sensitivity to the New Yorkers, most particularly the families of 9/11 victims who lost their loved ones.

The most powerful story of the new century is of course 9/11 with its 2700 dead wherein myth of American invincibility came shattering down and the realization that there were foreigners who hated them enough to trade their lives for the Americans came to the fore. !!! 9/11 has infused a deep hatred in the minds of Americans for anything remotely associated with Islam. In process Muslims throughout America are being attacked because of their religion and this is making ‘bigotry’ worse than it ever was.

Although, Barack Obama is making all the kinds of bold statements to ensure that American Government is supporting ‘Freedom of all Religions…’ Streets of America are echoing different sentiments altogether.

Sitting in India we often, complain about government making political issue out of religious sentiments of people but I guess, world over the picture is same!!! Why can’t we truly understand that what we give to others comes back to us in equal and proportionate measures…? And this applies to only the American-Islam feud but to every individual’s life in all the respects…it’s time for self introspection!!! Indeed!!!

Facts courtesy: Chicago Tribune, the Huffington Post.

37: Someone said appraisal...

What I always knew was - Appraisal is something that takes place during the month of April or in the month of December for those who have Jan-Dec cycle.

To begin with I had never heard of anyone having an appraisal in the month of august... forget about 200% hike. 200% HIKE..????????? Are you kidding....? Of course not...if you don’t know whom I am talking about, well then this is the super elite class of Indian Government MPs who very recently had their appraisal for the stupendous job that they performed for all these years!!! Is the figure 200%??? Huh... You don’t believe me? But yes that’s true (I can see ...all super elite MPs blushing pink...)!!!

Okay then, maybe they must have performed that well, that they got that huge a raise..!!! Oh yes they did... What? You want me to point it out, Sure anything for you...

To start with, we had a terrific job done while handling aircraft business by Mr. Praful Patel who diverted a whole civilian aeroplane so that his daughter could watch IPL match in the stadium...mind you plane was heading to Delhi but then it just got diverted a bit and halted at Jaipur dropped off his daughter and left for Delhi... big deal boss!!! Hota hai ... she was his daughter!!!

Next we had our very old friend Mr Arjun Singh- yeah the same old education minister...making list of more and more reservations... actually the fact is he himself don’t remember which all bills he has passed on. Infact, some time back, little birdie leaked the news about his own grandson asking him... “I don’t have any quota granddad... where will I get admission now???” So sure this guy needs money to see to it that is grandson can get a paid seat admission... poor him!!!

 Next we have our very own prime minister, Passing Nuke Bill for such shallow cap on the remuneration for God forbid any tragedies that might occur in future...!!!  With this bill, he iterated the fact that life of a single Indian is very cheap, if you take it away, it’s okay, pay some nominal fine and get away with it...!!!

Common Wealth Games is such a hit worldwide that now many countries who are hosting next world cup, T20 cup, FIFA world cup, etc are taking tips from Mr. Suresh Kalmadi, on how to make away with the wealth (err... Common wealth...errs... Common Wealth games).

They want to raise a statue of Chhatrapti Shivaji Maharaj, in the Arabian Sea near Gateway of India...why? I feel to appease some section of opposition parties, who they are constantly at loggerheads with... But they can’t afford to complete JVLR project –the prestigious World Bank project in time. Who cares boss? They still have huge time to eat in more money in the process. But seems they don’t get to eat more money in that process so I guess even 200% hike is justified for them..!!! Hmm ... maybe!!!

The hike in salaries stand at 200%... plus

• every year 1,50,000 phone calls free of charge


• 18,000 INR for broadband connection


• INR 14,00,000 in foreign travel ( one return ticket can go to avg INR 50,000  that makes it 28 foreign trips ever year... free free free...)


• Residence in Delhi-Rental 9,00,00 each year ( that comes to INR 75,000 rental per month...well actual rentals are less than half of that....)


• And much more...

 Frankly, I am exhausted counting their perks!!! All in all I know, now Government will spend almost INR 50 lakhs for each MP of India, India as in we taxpayers that is, in return of roads with potholes (err... potholes with roads in btw them...), increasing unemployment, Marathi-Hindi clashes in the society, shabby CWG in Delhi, extreme unrest in the valley once again...Eternal clashes between Naxals and other Eastern and north eastern states, pitiful state of Indian Hockey (National game) and above all the issue of terrorism and a nuisance country called PAKISTAN!!!

 Every now then, we do hear many public figures exclaiming that we should rise to the occasion and fight it back and we should raise our voice and defeat our enemy called terrorism...but very honestly, we are a bunch of tolerant people who are extremely timid to take any steps, what with the fear looming that someone might just bump us off this world if we raise our voice... didn’t I tell you Indian life is too cheap!!!! A newspaper daily carried a front page headline stating that Mumbai police has started a face book account and has urged people to spy on in the city and report anyone breaking a law, along with photo proofs on to it and then they would look into it.  Well , no harm in being so tech savvy, but guess it’s time to implement hard rules that would make people fear a person in uniform than think of him as some tech savvy jerk waiting for next update to be posted by public on his face book account!!!

 Gosh, we drifted from our topic; well getting back to the 200% hike in salaries... this got implemented very recently on the background of already implemented 6the pay commission- revised salary rates for all these MPs...!!! And the best part is , they dont have retirement clause in their employment!!! Some people are sure very lucky in life!!!

Wondering... will I ever get a hike of even 50% ????

33: Give me an answer...

Do you face questions??… Tough ones? …easy ones??… Lighter??...darker??… simpler ones… complex issues???… Almost every type baffles us if we either don’t understand them or we don’t know an answer to them…!!!

Questions like blue or white shirt??? Morning or evening slot for gym??? Normal cheap vegetable vendor or slightly expensive Reliance Fresh??? Normal hair blow dry or permanent straightening?? …. are often simpler and easier to tackle… a bit more pondering over them can easily lead you to an answer or best you might consult someone before arriving at the decision… and lest assured that the decision is one which you are convinced at totally!!!

But then there are questions which catch you off guard!!! Questions which have more than one right answer to it… which makes you to think and think… and wherein you might not come down to any particular answer. Such questions can create havoc in your life and by that I mean that it can bring doom or bloom...You don’t know!!!!

Indeed, we are tested all the time… and life is eventually made in all the answers that we give it back…

Being a true Libran, I am blessed with highest level of indecisiveness that can not only make me one crazy human being but at times also irritates the hell out of others around me. Not able to take a quick decision gets on my nerves like anything. Not wanting to falter in anything and everything and yet making sense out of every decision is just too much to handle.

More often than not, we know answers to life’s most difficult questions beforehand...it’s only that we don’t accept them or wait an eternity in hope of finding a more better solution!!! Believe me; I never succeed in finding that other better solution but I still do the same thing every time!!! Amongst the two best options (answers) available there is always one that is correct as per my mind and the other that is correct as per my soul…and more often than not there is this whole big battlefield that goes on between them…

But now I have made peace with myself in this case...and I think everybody around too, should try my way of arriving at decisions if in any dillema...

What??? Haven’t heard about age old methods huh???

“ Simply toss a coin…wherein one side supports your mind while the other one roots for your heart…and while the coin is in the air…Your soul secretly knows what it wants the decision of coin to be…”
Try it out...!!!

32: Germany...u disappointed me!!!!

I am disappointed today… Didn’t ever expect that my favorite team and my favorite player would play so badly in FIFA world cup…

To hell with the so- called Octopus who predicts match results... all I wanted was a genuine fight and genuine struggle to win…sadly, I could see neither..!!!

Absence of Mueller was not the issue… but the temperament of players was!!!! Klose, Podolski, Schweinsteiger, Ozil form a formidable side in itself… all they wanted was a positive frame of mind to get over the octopus prediction and see to it that their fans won’t believe the octopus theory ever again… but, guess what, now the octopus is next to GOD …!!! SICK!!!!

After showing no sympathy towards a team like Argentina… Germans were not supposed to bow out of tournament so shabbily…!!! Nobody expected that!!!

The go-getters Germans were reduced and confined to only their half defending and trying to get a glimpse of ball for themselves…Neither could they find gaps within Spanish attack nor could they create true German styled pacy attacks. First half was drowsy with almost nothing great to look out for …except missed header by Puyol… and another well saved attempt by German Goalie Neuer and of course there was an episode of a fan sprinting all the way in the ground and two cops behind him and I guess that was more entertaining than the rest of first half.

Ball possession was the major issue….Spaniards didn’t allow the ball to slip out of their control for too long… they were all over the field diving, running, dodging the ball and doing everything possible in their capacity to keep Germans as far away as possible from the ball and their half of the field!!! Spaniards too missed out on so many opportunities themselves… there was a diagonal pass from Pedro to Villa which villa missed out on…and also the famous Pedro attempt to put ball in the goal which was thwarted by a German defender, but which was a potential goal had it been passed to Torres…But amongst all, must say the missed opportunity by Kroos did cost Germany heavily!!!



Had Germany played well and lost then I would have applauded Spain for their awesome display but with Germany playing so horrible, it made me to shut off the TV and reach out for my bed well before match actually ended!!! Most of the German players were heard giving bites to print media prior to the match that this match is crucial... Spain’s are favorites… they are the best team in the world…!!!! All agreed that yes Spain are Euro champs as well and yes they are a good side and of course one should be modest… but not to the extent that it can start making you feel weak and underdogs..!!!! A team that can beat Argentina 4-0 can never be an underdog!!! Along with above mentioned statements… Mueller’s absence and Paul the Octopus BABA’s prediction…proved to a catalyst in changing a formidable and ferocious German side into meek and nervous team that only aimed at not conceding any goals…but didn’t aim at scoring some!!!

Often, “NOT FAILURE BUT LOW AIM IS CRIME….” …so true!!!



Miroslav Klose – my favorite footballer and the only reason I root for Germany also the winner of golden boot last world cup … didn’t get any opportunity to display his talent!!! Poor passes…bad playing strategy… mental pressure…wet field… did Germany in!!!

Spaniards must be applauded for their amazing control over ball… although I feel Spanish too weren’t at their best that day!!! But if we go by “may best team win approach” then I guess Spain deserved more!!!





But, am I disappointed? Yes I am…!!!! I am sulking since yesterday!!!

2: Past trying to foray into present..

Many things are changing.... long  lost ppl are coming back in life... as if they never left... life doesnt ask me.. whether i need them back... why???

I want my life to allow me to take few decisions atleast... but hell NO..!!! I had learned to live without them... infact I was happy... and now i really dont want anyone to come and mess my life as if they have right to it.!!

I dont know what kind of stars and planets' makeup i am made of... but for me distancing from ppl is not difficult.. For me.. movement is important and that too only forward... I dont believe in turning around and giving a handshake to the past... for me what is gone is past ... never to come back... and what is present ...is to be cherished and lived to the fullest ...!!! I quite feel suffocated when someone from past tries to interfere in my personal space in present ... in such situations what can you do? -be straight in handling it by letting noe the person concerned that u no longer can provide space that once u used to... or else go with the flow... accomodate the past when u have free time in present..!!!

I am the kind of person who will never sit and try to predict the future ... but i am blessed with the natural power to detach.... from the environs , from the people who no longer mean essential in my life to survive..!!! You may feel i am arrogant but being a little arrogant is better than being an emotional fool... And i love it this way..!!! So no question of accomodating the past..!!!

In any relationship.. there should be space for each other to breath and live , survive... Its true that ppl come and go in ur life so that they can provide u with the most valuable asset of ur life -"experience" !!! But which experiences to cherish and value and which ones to exclude from your life is at your discretion...its very tough to be the special person in my life...but once u r tagged special...u remain that way for me till my last breath..!!!!Because then you know that u r "somethign else"....!!!

( this post is in memory of a clingy person who is a total pest and obnoxious weed.. this is to tell her/him that ... i am fed up of you..@@@@@@@ )