54: I am selfish....

I was selfish...I wanted it all...

A smiling glimpse ...an assuring hug...
A tender care...a smiling cheer...
A watchful hand...an unadulterated faith...
One daily prayer...and one daily tear...

And then I met you...
Yes I was still selfish... I wanted it all...

Your first morning thought.... your good night dream...
Your teasing face... your personal space...
Your strong clutched hands ....your loving caring arms...
The worry on your forehead...the concern in your heart...
The happiness in your smile...the sunshine in your every mile...
Your funny language accent...the friends that you made...
Your true blood relations... and above all your unassuming self...

I thought I had got you...
Clearing the clouds of doubt...I faced it...
I knew ... it was you...someone who was real and true...
Although you had grey shades that made you ... YOU...

There I was standing... with my barriers collapsed...
Waiting to be taken in arms...and to be told ‘you are mine...’
It seemed fairytale...yet I believed it was true...
For... I always thought I had got you...

Yes I was selfish... I wanted it all...
Never in my life had I doubted that one day it will be all be gone...

My heart was broken... shattered in thousand pieces...
For I meant a buddy to you...and never your princess...
I cried whole day... I cried whole night...
Telling you I am ok... although nothing was right...

I wanted to shout... I wanted to cry...
I wanted to hurt you... but don’t know why I didn’t try...
My girls asked me... to question you...
To ask you... to confront you...
But all I could see was that one twinkle in your eye...
It was clear to me... that very far was I...
Since then... I m not on good terms with God...
I am unhappy with him... for he knew it all along...

I think I am still selfish...even today I want it all....

Smile on your face... joy on your lips...
Your flourishing life...your amazing health...
Your rising success... your shining happiness....
Although it is evident that...someone else is your princess...!!!

I can feel God asking me sometimes
’Why now??? Even after all this’
I don’t think I am answerable to him...
But...maybe ... because I am still selfish...!!!

(its a personal creation, refrain from illegal copying of the contents. Its my serious try at writing poetries... do leave back your feedback...it will be much appreciated... :D)

(http://verne10.wordpress.com/2011/02/23/i-am-selfish/)

27: Moving away from you...

You were the best, you still are
And that is reason; you always healed my scars...
You knew me so well, you still do
But this distance somehow, is making us to move
To our destinies, our life paths,
Wherein with our partners we would always belong...
But, my friend you will always remain in my heart,
And the memories you gave me, will forever last.

Whenever you need me, pick up the phone
I am always there, on the other side of the shore...
Happy in my own world, I wish the best for you
Your man is great person, who would never make you blue.

There might come some days, when you shall miss me,
Remember we are on each other’s friend list and you can ping me...
It will be just like old times...
We will be laughing and giggling our way again...
For the two teen girls in us can never fade away...!!!!

(http://verne10.wordpress.com/2010/05/22/moving-away-from-you/)

19: Blue Paradise...

Vast expansive blueness, with sparkling crystals of sand dunes
The sea comes rushing at me, carrying its rocky tunes...

While roaring sounds of waves,
Sends a horror down my spine,
The whity foam of gushing waters
Only cajoles my feet and makes me smile.

The evening breeze that kisses,
The splashing waves along its route...
Brings back memories and goose bumps
While truly shivering my soul...

I love to watch the distant horizon
Which gulps the big ball of fire,
Far away from my hands reach
It sets the evening in motion.

Sitting on the seashore I eat an ice-candy,
And try and compare its color palette with evening sky mighty!!!

As the crowd slowly fades away
I stand there watching this nature’s tune
Wondering how each single day,
This experience still remains new!!!

The colored water of candy trickles down my fingers
Bringing me back to reality as the candy gets over...
The day has come to an end and so has the ice candy
Evening sky has ended its show,
And the night has started its party!!!!