I am back... and with a bang!! too cliched...right?
I am back, yes, but certainly not with a bang...! Its been a long time since I have written something, said something or had a rant against someone. I do think at times, have I changed? Don't I have problem with anyone any more? Do I not care for anything any more? Well, I do care for many things, many people, and I certainly have rants against many people, but guess its all part of growing up.. accepting things... making peace with what life gives you...!!
I am also in process of finding my rhythm once again... my flair for writing... !! Its been a while I have been a regular here...somehow, this space feels unfamiliar to me... it feels like I have lost my connect with it...!! For a long time now, I feel like I have deserted my own self...left behind my own self...and have come along a path which is not how I would have imagined for myself...!! For a long time now, getting up in the morning... going to workplace ... working like a donkey for 13-14 hours at a stretch and coming back home.. gorging on all the bad and heavy calories late night and then retiring for the day, has been the only thing in my life...!! I have worked quite a lot in last 1 year, worked relentlessly to prove my mettle ... to mark my place in my workplace... to adjust, learn and achieve all that I could ... and I must say I have been successful in doing so...a promotion at workplace is the proof enough of my efforts ... but somewhere I have lost myself in this rat race..!!!
These days, I question my own self... was it worth it? All that I did in last 1 year, all that I sacrificed in last 1 year, was it worth it for a single promotion? It certainly isn't...
But as people say..."Der aaye durust aaye..."
I hope to keep coming back here more often...and find my flair.. my rhythm ... find "ME" again...!!
That's my new resolution for the upcoming year.... I am never again going to lose myself in the process to prove something to someone ... I will never ever become someone else in process of achieving something in life...!!!
I am back, yes, but certainly not with a bang...! Its been a long time since I have written something, said something or had a rant against someone. I do think at times, have I changed? Don't I have problem with anyone any more? Do I not care for anything any more? Well, I do care for many things, many people, and I certainly have rants against many people, but guess its all part of growing up.. accepting things... making peace with what life gives you...!!
I am also in process of finding my rhythm once again... my flair for writing... !! Its been a while I have been a regular here...somehow, this space feels unfamiliar to me... it feels like I have lost my connect with it...!! For a long time now, I feel like I have deserted my own self...left behind my own self...and have come along a path which is not how I would have imagined for myself...!! For a long time now, getting up in the morning... going to workplace ... working like a donkey for 13-14 hours at a stretch and coming back home.. gorging on all the bad and heavy calories late night and then retiring for the day, has been the only thing in my life...!! I have worked quite a lot in last 1 year, worked relentlessly to prove my mettle ... to mark my place in my workplace... to adjust, learn and achieve all that I could ... and I must say I have been successful in doing so...a promotion at workplace is the proof enough of my efforts ... but somewhere I have lost myself in this rat race..!!!
These days, I question my own self... was it worth it? All that I did in last 1 year, all that I sacrificed in last 1 year, was it worth it for a single promotion? It certainly isn't...
But as people say..."Der aaye durust aaye..."
I hope to keep coming back here more often...and find my flair.. my rhythm ... find "ME" again...!!
That's my new resolution for the upcoming year.... I am never again going to lose myself in the process to prove something to someone ... I will never ever become someone else in process of achieving something in life...!!!
