Tuesday, August 31, 2010

38: Ground Zero- the battle continues...

Ground zero –is sacred to most Americans. Sacred, not in religious sense but in humanity sense. Grounds, where once stood the very famous twin towers of World Trade centre, epitomize the loss of thousands of near and dear ones who lost their relations to one of the world’s most tragic attack on humanism.

An attack which, not only  saw a nascent militant group by name Al-Qaida become notorious for its gruesome and heinous crimes but also gave rise to sheer hatred for another word -‘ISLAM’!!!

Chicago Tribune quotes-“Our Constitution guarantees the freedom of all faiths. Not just the ones most of us are comfortable having as neighbors. Not just the ones that attract the most members or the ones whose faith traditions resemble our own, but all faiths. Yet, the notion of an Islamic center two blocks away from a site many New Yorkers view as sacred ground is sure to produce visceral responses”



Post 9/11 many citizens of US who were Muslim by religion were tortured and harassed under the reason of ‘doubt’.  Here I recall a movie by title ‘Khuda kay liye’ which I happened to see couple of years back. It was based on the living condition of Muslim people in US and how they were picked up from their houses simply on the basis of doubt and questioned and tortured for months in the cell… Indeed, what happened in US on 9/11 was horrendous act of crime but what happened after that was equally horrendous for sure!

Nobody can justify the act of crime meted out to Americans but neither can one understand the abandonment of a particular religion on sheer basis of few people stooping low on their morals and going on rampage destroying peace and harmony in the society. Society is built on the foundation of assimilation and acceptance. If any one particular person/group tries to rule and create his monopoly, democracy gets compromised. And that is something which is precisely happening in America and for that reason in world over.

Americans on other hand are taking this a notch higher by turning it into a political drama. There are thousands of people protesting against the mosque saying-‘Islam is not a religion... it’s a political and militarist group’. Forget about civilians, there are people like Sarah Palin who is busy giving her anti-Islam bytes as well.  There were demonstrations that happened in US where people wore "Vote for Jesus" T-shirts and carried signs that said "No Sharia law for USA”.  The mosque opponents are referring to this as not a constitutional issue but rather one of sensitivity to the New Yorkers, most particularly the families of 9/11 victims who lost their loved ones.

The most powerful story of the new century is of course 9/11 with its 2700 dead wherein myth of American invincibility came shattering down and the realization that there were foreigners who hated them enough to trade their lives for the Americans came to the fore. !!! 9/11 has infused a deep hatred in the minds of Americans for anything remotely associated with Islam. In process Muslims throughout America are being attacked because of their religion and this is making ‘bigotry’ worse than it ever was.

Although, Barack Obama is making all the kinds of bold statements to ensure that American Government is supporting ‘Freedom of all Religions…’ Streets of America are echoing different sentiments altogether.

Sitting in India we often, complain about government making political issue out of religious sentiments of people but I guess, world over the picture is same!!! Why can’t we truly understand that what we give to others comes back to us in equal and proportionate measures…? And this applies to only the American-Islam feud but to every individual’s life in all the respects…it’s time for self introspection!!! Indeed!!!

Facts courtesy: Chicago Tribune, the Huffington Post.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

37: Someone said appraisal...

What I always knew was - Appraisal is something that takes place during the month of April or in the month of December for those who have Jan-Dec cycle.

To begin with I had never heard of anyone having an appraisal in the month of august... forget about 200% hike. 200% HIKE..????????? Are you kidding....? Of course not...if you don’t know whom I am talking about, well then this is the super elite class of Indian Government MPs who very recently had their appraisal for the stupendous job that they performed for all these years!!! Is the figure 200%??? Huh... You don’t believe me? But yes that’s true (I can see ...all super elite MPs blushing pink...)!!!

Okay then, maybe they must have performed that well, that they got that huge a raise..!!! Oh yes they did... What? You want me to point it out, Sure anything for you...

To start with, we had a terrific job done while handling aircraft business by Mr. Praful Patel who diverted a whole civilian aeroplane so that his daughter could watch IPL match in the stadium...mind you plane was heading to Delhi but then it just got diverted a bit and halted at Jaipur dropped off his daughter and left for Delhi... big deal boss!!! Hota hai ... she was his daughter!!!

Next we had our very old friend Mr Arjun Singh- yeah the same old education minister...making list of more and more reservations... actually the fact is he himself don’t remember which all bills he has passed on. Infact, some time back, little birdie leaked the news about his own grandson asking him... “I don’t have any quota granddad... where will I get admission now???” So sure this guy needs money to see to it that is grandson can get a paid seat admission... poor him!!!

 Next we have our very own prime minister, Passing Nuke Bill for such shallow cap on the remuneration for God forbid any tragedies that might occur in future...!!!  With this bill, he iterated the fact that life of a single Indian is very cheap, if you take it away, it’s okay, pay some nominal fine and get away with it...!!!

Common Wealth Games is such a hit worldwide that now many countries who are hosting next world cup, T20 cup, FIFA world cup, etc are taking tips from Mr. Suresh Kalmadi, on how to make away with the wealth (err... Common wealth...errs... Common Wealth games).

They want to raise a statue of Chhatrapti Shivaji Maharaj, in the Arabian Sea near Gateway of India...why? I feel to appease some section of opposition parties, who they are constantly at loggerheads with... But they can’t afford to complete JVLR project –the prestigious World Bank project in time. Who cares boss? They still have huge time to eat in more money in the process. But seems they don’t get to eat more money in that process so I guess even 200% hike is justified for them..!!! Hmm ... maybe!!!

The hike in salaries stand at 200%... plus

  • every year 1,50,000 phone calls free of charge

  • 18,000 INR for broadband connection

  • INR 14,00,000 in foreign travel ( one return ticket can go to avg INR 50,000  that makes it 28 foreign trips ever year... free free free...)

  • Residence in Delhi-Rental 9,00,00 each year ( that comes to INR 75,000 rental per month...well actual rentals are less than half of that....)

  • And much more...

 Frankly, I am exhausted counting their perks!!! All in all I know, now Government will spend almost INR 50 lakhs for each MP of India, India as in we taxpayers that is, in return of roads with potholes (err... potholes with roads in btw them...), increasing unemployment, Marathi-Hindi clashes in the society, shabby CWG in Delhi, extreme unrest in the valley once again...Eternal clashes between Naxals and other Eastern and north eastern states, pitiful state of Indian Hockey (National game) and above all the issue of terrorism and a nuisance country called PAKISTAN!!!

 Every now then, we do hear many public figures exclaiming that we should rise to the occasion and fight it back and we should raise our voice and defeat our enemy called terrorism...but very honestly, we are a bunch of tolerant people who are extremely timid to take any steps, what with the fear looming that someone might just bump us off this world if we raise our voice... didn’t I tell you Indian life is too cheap!!!! A newspaper daily carried a front page headline stating that Mumbai police has started a face book account and has urged people to spy on in the city and report anyone breaking a law, along with photo proofs on to it and then they would look into it.  Well , no harm in being so tech savvy, but guess it’s time to implement hard rules that would make people fear a person in uniform than think of him as some tech savvy jerk waiting for next update to be posted by public on his face book account!!!

 Gosh, we drifted from our topic; well getting back to the 200% hike in salaries... this got implemented very recently on the background of already implemented 6the pay commission- revised salary rates for all these MPs...!!! And the best part is , they dont have retirement clause in their employment!!! Some people are sure very lucky in life!!!

Wondering... will I ever get a hike of even 50% ????

Thursday, August 12, 2010

36: His Libran Girlfriend...

“Rip it off… throw it off… I don’t want to deal with it… it makes me go nuts…why can’t for once in life you decide something??? ” and bang hits the door….!!! She noticed that he left the room..!!!!



She pondered …is it that simple? Am I a moron to take so long to decide??? She thought that its time she should think about what she really wants??? But she didn’t know what she was all like? What was her true self…???  What was she really really like??? Alright she thought… good direction to start with…what am I like?



She noted few bullet points:

Sweet

Smiling

Loves arts

Creative

Slightly short tempered…

Balanced person

……..

………

…………

Hell No, this is not a matrimonial ad page…. Alright then… on I go…let me try and make sense….

I don’t want options…I want answers…I don’t want possibilities… I want circumstances…I hate contemplating… I like agreeing…I hate dilemma I like decisions…

Might someone help me do it…I want to learn more…I want to learn it one more time…Powers of decisions… that make you feel satisfied… I want to experience one…

I like balancing… I like peace… the soothing music of rains makes me serene…

The more I share… the more I gain (not weight …: O)…its gives me pleasure beyond words can spare…you start a topic and leave rest to me… then I can take you through all its ups and downs…talk for hours and still say … you know what, there is so much I want to tell you about!!! Talk less listen more... Mom says too… but what to do? Can’t help… the Libran nose can hardly stop poking…

You ask me whether u r fat???? I would say …. Well, best part is u r looking great today… not this diplomatic every time… you do something wrong and ask me whether you were right... I would say you are grown up now… but then, if you coax me further and a honest reply is what you seek….I would say maybe you should reconsider your stand…I won’t call spade a spade…but neither would I call it a magic wand….making justice at each step is what I am born for!!!

Money is important…it gives security and balance….but spending it the way you want, gives meaning to your hard earned money. If I go to mall, Yes I spend…how much? Well never kept a tab of it…dressing to the detail is my forte…accessories, footwear everything should be coordinated… well, yes coordination is my other name!!!

Things happen my way and I am content... planned things take place and I get confident…but when everything seems different…no plan works out…no decision is right… gloominess phases in and my demons surround me. I don’t like them, for they make me weak..I want to knuckle them…kill them…shoot them… but they keep growing stronger…this is the point where I need someone who could see me through this…fortunately  I have people with me…they like me... they adore me.. They love me…they respect me…and life becomes manageable…

You criticize me... and I won’t take it nicely…you explain me and I would admire you throughout my life…I get influenced so don’t  try and shuffle my mind thousand times… you may piss me off that way …

A healthy amalgamation of style and panache…. I can hardly bore you…look in my eyes and you will be mesmerized …look to what I talk and you will be intrigued… they don’t call me party person for anything…they don’t call me live wire for anything…

Get me on an activity and I would be one amongst the buddies…get me to a candle light dinner…and you would see me blushing…get me to a movie theatre and you will have to keep an extra handkerchief ready…

I see dreams…I live them… I make characters that forever live a part of me…some dreams transcend into reality and I am overjoyed…others don’t see light of day …but then who cares …I forget those dreams the moment I wake up…

More than gifts, affection wins me… (Not that I don’t take gifts... of course I love taking them…) but I can sniff the fallacy the moment I look into your eyes…so beware… if you don’t mean it don’t say you love me forget about gift…well I won’t kill you… c’mon who wants to go to jail…but respect once gone is hardly a retake shot!!! Be true to yourself… and I would be all coy in your arms… dreamy to the core …romance is something which you will never have to teach me... have faith and I can move mountains for you… with that dialogue now you know why I am called dreamy and romantic to the core!!!

“Moments are never special... you ought to make them one…” I live by this… walk by this… survive by this…so, don’t worry about surprises there will be plenty… of course they would be pleasant!!! And receiving surprises… well, it’s my favorite past time :)

I love being with people… I need them... my emotional design collapses with desertion and loneliness… I need strong arms that can protect, embrace and hug…I need a smile daily to make believe that things are fine…Don’t worry, I am not that complicated …whatever I ask you to do I would do that 10 times more for you…you ask for promise??? I give you my word..!!! Life is not easy I know…but I try and maintain balance that I am an expert at!!!

At decision making... let me falter sometimes… don’t expect me to take razor sharp and crystal decisions … give me my time and I would come into my own… but it’s okay yaar I just take more time to gather information for that decision…simple!!!

I forever ask God to Give me that power …I need it right now... than any other time in my life….Just once in my life I want to be sure…I want to be certain… I want to be bang on….My decision is right… my decision is fine… let somebody tell me that this is something that was always in my sight...well I know what I want… but far too many routes makes the story long…and I don’t know which route is better… which is clear.. Which one is dear and which one is to fear!!!

Husshhh!!! She said… so this is what I am..!!!! Gosh….. 2 full pages of word document…!!!! Okay so is this really me? Or whatever I wrote before??? But now, I guess bullet points are easy to analyze and help take decision… but what about this description?? Maybe I can ask him... who among these am I? Maybe… It’s high time...!!! Alright….I should only decide…



But then….bullet points…. Yeah maybe…



Naah… the description is bang on….

Aargh!!!! Maybe I should think over this after sometime... or should I directly ask him???

Forget...maybe the answer will pop up just like that...maybe I should go have a coffee and think over this... oh yes I didn't write in description that I love coffee....hmmm that means description is right... hmmm maybe...!!!

So I am indecisive huh!!!!  so he wanted to say that I am indecisive??? Of course not... I can take decisions... maybe coffee first...!!!!









P.S:- no intentions to hurt any Libran person…its one from the series I am writing on zodiacs and the people…so if any coincidence found with any person dead or alive it’s okay.. Be considerate to them….Being Libran is not a joke!!!!

P.S2:- everything here is what I have observed in most of the Librans I have met till date... there can be exceptions....so plz dont search for my head...

Friday, August 6, 2010

35: Short story: Do all relationships come with a past??

This post is for the Soch Lo Indibloger contest...Do all relationships come with a past?

Now,I know what love is all about...

‘People come and go and what leave behind are footprints…’ what a clichéd line you may feel…. Sharon felt it too… but then life did something so drastic with her thoughts that all things which seemed fake and unreal to her started making sense!!!

Childhood for Sharon was all about her… petty quarrels with big brother, keeping her foot down for lot of stupid things and crying over to get it, she had done that all. Sometimes, those things were really important to her but then once certain threshold phase would go; those things made no sense to her, forget about liking them… this was her first brush with knowing her true self that she gets bored of things easily!!!

Things, one can still understand but her parents, especially mother was worried for she hoped that this tendency doesn’t creep in while dealing with people. Sharon used to argue saying-‘how can I ever get bored of people???’ She used to ask her-‘have I ever got bored of you? No right? because it can’t be… people whom I love and who love me can’t bore me…simple!!! ’ her mother had no answer to this... only that she secretly prayed to God to make her daughter see the better side of life and generate some compassion in her heart…!!!

Circa 1990… Sharon was 16 and by far the only girl in her group minus a boyfriend while cupid was busy playing games with all her other friends. It was hard for her, to understand her friends who would dress up in order to please their boyfriends although those outfits looked horrible on them.  She used to mock them saying that ‘its better I don’t have to do this in my life…’ But on inside, she was a confused person about this whole dating theory.

For a girl who never in her life gave more importance to anyone other than her own sweet self, it was not only tough but a personality changing step to fall for someone and make him ultra special in her life. She had two options to deal with this, fall to peer-pressure or stay away from all this. Quite obviously, she chose the latter.

At the age when most of her friends were basking in the sweetness of gifts that they received from their boyfriends, Sharon would question in her mind –‘is this all necessary to do at this time?? Am I wrong somewhere in not wanting this??? ‘And this confusion made her more indifferent and irritated with the dating concept. As most girls would start discussing their love life once they met each other, Sharon stayed away from them as far as possible. Now, most of her best friends were guys... who didn’t gossip about their love life, even if they had it!!! She liked the fun part of being with them… she was one amongst them… she would hang out ,watch movies, play bowling, study with them and with each passing year, she started changing too.  Now she was more of a party maker, less on temper and more on fun….less on rules… and high on life!!! Indeed Sharon was happy in her self life!!!

Ross- fit, 5”9 was a happy go lucky guy, upbeat about life, easy going, and level headed. He used to say-‘Life is too short, why waste it worrying???’ He was one those guys who would date girls just for the fun of it. But as he would get to know the girls more, the narrow-mindedness which they possessed about relationships would scare him and he would run away as far as possible from them. Frankly, he was never serious for any of the girls he dated .For all Ross knew was healthy flirting, dating and good bye.

It was one of those university days when Sharon was late as usual for the presentation that she bumped into Ross. She heard a loud shriek from behind her that almost numbed her ears. She turned around to find a straight out of bed looking guy balancing files in his hands and running towards her cab. ‘We are in same university, don’t worry, I have no intentions to harass you, I am getting late for my lectures, can we go together???’ and the moment his statement was over, he was already inside the cab. Sharon had no other option, but to take this jerk along with her since she was in no mood to argue with anyone that would delay her presentation even more.

After taking some quick breaths, Ross thanked her for the ride. Sharon at once exulted –‘don’t thank me you jerk, pay half the bill and get on with life’. Since then there have been many altercations between them, and later they both were the thickest of the friends that the university ever saw. Many times sitting beside each other all they talked was silence and both knew that they had the best conversation ever in their life.  Ross and Sharon never judged each other and they never had to justify their actions too. They respected each other’s individuality and strived to never interfere in each other’s personal space. Ross was her punch bag whenever she was frustrated with her life. Sharon was often the middle person who would introduce Ross to girls who he wanted to date next… At times, she felt stupid and sick of helping him this way but she always knew that he meant no harm to any girl and that it was all in healthy spirit of flirting!!! Sharon knew all the tactics that he used to date girls and he knew very well that Sharon was one no nonsense girl to be handled with care…. Their friendship indeed was one of its kinds… Ross liked listening to all the girly gossip that she would bring… and Sharon liked listening to his dating escapades feeling pity for all the girls he dated… They were two real buddies in their own world!!!

After graduation years, a girl who was so self centric had changed a lot. There was someone in her life, someone who knew her well, who respected her, who cared for her, who was there for her always, who meant happiness to her. There was Ross in her life and her mother had rightly noticed that but their friends thought that they meant only friendship and nothing else. Also, with a girl like Sharon, anything apart from friendship was a distant dream. And Ross respected her for that. At times, he did feel that if ever any person on this earth can handle him, it can be Sharon only, for she knew him far too much than he knew himself. But, relationship and Sharon were two different entities…and he knew that too. Ross never uttered the word ‘relationship’ in front of her although there was part of him that had started loving her since more than anything, she was his best friend and this friendship was too precious for him to lose it for anything in this world.

Dejected Ross moved NY in search of better career prospects when Sharon started meeting guys her parents had shortlisted for her marriage alliance. Nothing seemed to click between her and the guys she met for they were either too ‘taking for granted’ types or they were too timid to hold their fort against Sharon…Indeed handling Sharon was not everyone’s cup of tea!!!

Her mother finally confronted her over Ross and their friendship… Sharon was stunned since no one in her life had ever questioned her whether she liked Ross??? She fumed, she argued, she cried  because for once she was realizing that whatever her mother spoke today, was all true!!! She was indeed searching another Ross in all the guys she met. She knew Ross was gone never to be back. And if he does then it might be lot of years later, probably with his wife and children to meet her and her family. She realized the longing and love she had in her heart for Ross for the first time in her life, and she realized that love was not all that bad; it was much more than just giving and receiving gifts, it was much more than just calling each other every 1 hour to ask about whereabouts, it was more than just being together all the time. She realized that love was to trust a person unconditionally, to stand by him through all the thick and thin and to live moments of life together than just being together. Finally, Sharon was in love.

It was 9th august 2010, and there were Ross’s birthday celebrations!!! Being married for good 10 years, Sharon was now a loving wife and a caring mother. And, Steve and Ross were integral part of her life what with Steve being her strength while Ross -her biggest weakness!  Steve had woven a blanket of affection and love around Sharon which made her feel secured, loved and cared!!!  Being by her side in all her insecurities, Steve ensured that he was not only a loving and doting husband but also her best friend whom she could always trust and fall back on… He not only loved her but also adored and respected her. Steve had filled the void in Sharon’s life so perfectly that her past never made any difference in her present life and Ross, their 8 yr kid was the reason why Sharon understood, what being beside your love forever meant…

Circa 2001, winter was chillier than it ever was…Sharon was happy in her marriage life and Steve made sure his wife- his love of life was never short of anything!!! As the maid was about to finish her daily chores, house bell rang musically and she paced to open the door. From the corner of her eye Sharon gave a glance to who was at the door and froze the moment she saw him!!! For a second she thought she must be hallucinating… or maybe she has overslept. But after another stunned minute, it finally sank in. She was indeed seeing him in flesh and blood at her doorstep. He was looking skinnier than before, and with nicely tucked in shirt and crisp ironed trousers Ross looked even more handsome than he ever did. Ross was overjoyed on seeing her. He took a step ahead to hug her just like old times…but braked in his path… for the indifference and discomfort in her eyes was unsettling for him. Ross understood as he always did!!! Sharon was happy and she had moved on in her life he observed. Nevertheless, she welcomed him in her house. After exchanging pleasantries, and talking for good 3 hours, Ross wished Sharon the very best for her life.

That night, Sharon decided to let Steve know about Ross and what he had meant for her at some point of time in her life. After dinner, Sharon spoke at lengths about Ross. Steve listened to her each single word with utmost caution, and gave all his ears to what she was saying. In the end, Sharon was in tears and she said-‘we are married Steve, you are my husband, my present and my future, but the kind of lovable Sharon you see today is Ross-made!!! He made me to see what love is all about… what being for each other meant …Ross is gone Steve …. And I am here not because we are still in a relation but because I want to be here in this moment with you… not because Ross deserted me few years back but because you made me to see that Ross-like love in your eyes each single day…and I for once now know, whom I love unconditionally… and Steve that person is you and will be you forever…  ’. Steve took her shivering frame by his arms and the moment was sealed. Steve and Sharon were married and it was for life!!!

Another year down, Sharon was expecting her first child. She was over ecstatic and so was Steve…

Amidst all the celebrations and parties, Steve named the baby - Ross!!! Sharon’s eyes moistened. The word ‘commitment’ had just started making sense to her!! She realized that it was not about saying ‘I love you’ 10 times in a day… but it was about saying-‘I know what you want ‘one time in a day!!! Past can never be ignored but it all depends on your present, on how it wants the past to affect the future life!!! And Steve made sure there was no room for any Ross to ever make a comeback...

Indeed, all relationships have some past, sometimes it’s pleasant and sometimes it’s weird… sometimes it’s pitch-dark and sometimes it’s the source of light that brightens your future life path…Soch Lo… but life is too short to waste it worrying…Ross came, he saw her, he loved her, he changed her and he went away … and what got left behind were his footprints that changed Sharon’s life and made it more lovable and innocent!!!

And on Ross’s 8th birthday, Sharon and Steve were the cutest couple on the dance floor while Ross was indeed a lucky chap to have them as his parents!!!

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Life is not what happens... life is how you make it happen...!! Thats my favorite quote... not because it gives away anything about my real character but it just gives me a better hope to know that I am here because of how I made it happen... and I will be at some other place also only because how I would make it happen...!!! But I do make mistakes.. lot of them... at times I learn from them, at all the others I just forget the episode and get ready to commit some new ones...!! Life is interesting because of I have really spicier people in them... and I come here and blabber around when the spice gets too much to handle.. :P:P