48: New Year Resolution... ala my way...

Another new year is here... and maybe a new beginning is what people see it as...me? Oh yeah... same to same...

Often people are ready with their New Year resolutions by the time its 1st January... okay I know there can be many who may think what resolutions...?? It’s a childish thing to think of it...!!! Alright point taken and accepted that not all do resolve to do something... and amongst those who do them very few actually follow them...that’s universal truth too!!! But let’s assume for some time that people do make resolutions when New Year starts...

So on similar lines....I have made a resolution this year (first time in mah life...) and which is something that I intend to follow...!!! Now people who follow this blog would know about my fascination with zodiac signs and Librans in particular. Well, why did I mention it here? Because, my resolution has something to do with it...!!! With zodiac signs..??? OMG... does she mean she is gonna learn astrology or something??? (No no... I don’t want to torture my blog visitors more ...don’t worry...). Well it has to do with one particular zodiac sign-Libra and their famous indecisiveness!!!

You have full right to ask me this ... Why is it that I keep on hammering things about Libran indecisiveness without sending out any disclaimer like “no relation to anyone living or dead...” that’s because it has relation to someone living in this goddamn world...and mind you no points for guessing who is he/she since...YOU KNOW HER (yea she is she...)!!!

Okay coming back to my resolution...so what is it that I want to do??

I don’t want to get up every day and spend some eternal 15 minutes time staring at my wardrobe as if every outfit I keep my eyes on is something worth giving a try today... (That does mean I actually have enough clothes that I won’t actually need to buy clothes for next one year at least...) but then it’s not about variety or quantity of clothes which is an issue... but my confusion..!!! Confusion since every outfit seems perfect for the day and I can’t quite decide which one I should wear... ok but the final result is- I almost always tend to wear whatever is easily accessible to my hands at the very top of the heap although I spend eternal 15 minutes admiring all the others ... that also means the one kept at the bottomest bottom of the heap (mera number kab aayega)... never actually gets the chance...(I suddenly feel like a villainous soul who is depriving someone of its food, clothing and shelter...) And the endest end result is I am always late for the office bus.... Aargghh...and I am still figuring out what is the reason for it??? If you could figure it out... let me know.... :P

I don’t want to go to an apparel shop and filter 2 of the dresses, which I may have liked from whole lot of bundle that I may have gone through....then try both of them in the trial room... and get super duper confused as to which I should buy, considering the fact that I am here to buy only one and not 2... And then the end result is- it gives the salesman an opportunity to say a dialogue-“usme kya hai madam... dono le lo...” and then although I am there to buy only one, the possibility of maybe I can buy both if I have liked them, starts taking shape in my grey matter...!!! Okay now if the person who is shopping with me is sound enough to say “c’mon no need of two... I think the blue one is perfect...” (Blue is my favourite color...), then I definitely climb back to my sanity and purchase the blue one..!! So the point is although I know blue is my favourite and it would look good... I get confused between choices... Aarrgghh... I am still figuring out why I take almost always more than 3 hours for shopping??? If you could figure it out... let me know :P

Okay so the main funda is –“Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you(in this case ME...) out” (I have kinda copied that line from the FUROBIKER’S TAGLINE...: P:P:P) So I have thought about doing something for this day to day wearing out...


But then why torture Librans here??? It’s because till date I had been in the perpetual mood of accepting the fact - oh its okay for Librans to be indecisive since it’s in their constitution... BUT NOT ANYMORE....!!! That means yes I am Libran....


The eternal Libran (ME...) has made a resolution that no more dwelling in the jungles of confusion... The resolution is to think over possibilities... analyse and take decisions. The resolution is to arrive at the decisions..!!! The resolution is to decide the next day’s outfit the previous night and no more spending 15 minutes of everyday morning life!!! The resolution is to think prior hand which colours I want to shop for and look out for possibilities in that space only...this way it will help to find out things which are necessary than things which are luxuries...this I say because I already have many blue dresses...and frankly I don’t need any more!!!


There is a very famous quote by St. Francis of Assisi- “Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible”. Okay and now I completely want to believe at this moment that there shall come a day when I would be doing that impossible...!!!

And yes I intend to stick to this...!!! Start by taking daily smaller decisions with finesse and there shall come a day when u shall arrive at that bigger something... and that line has already made me to start imagining some bigger decisions like- sitting in IPL auction and thinking of how much to raise my bid for Sachin...(hehehe.. he is my fav player...) and kinds...!!! So you got the drift..!!!!

And now most important how am I gonna track whether I was on track with this resolution...??? I don’t know... I am not gonna keep a data sheet to enter everyday decisions and my successes as I find it very very nerdy!!! Because you don’t need a piece of datasheet to tell you that you were successful or not!!! Because if you were successful ... you will know it, it’s that simple!!!

So maybe follow-on to this post can happen this year end...to declare my success or failure... but till then let me just say it loud and clear... I intend to follow my resolution!!! AMEN ... to that... :D


(Btw...I can also make a resolution to not pull legs of Librans anymore... my legs are already long... :P)

36: His Libran Girlfriend...

“Rip it off… throw it off… I don’t want to deal with it… it makes me go nuts…why can’t for once in life you decide something??? ” and bang hits the door….!!! She noticed that he left the room..!!!!



She pondered …is it that simple? Am I a moron to take so long to decide??? She thought that its time she should think about what she really wants??? But she didn’t know what she was all like? What was her true self…???  What was she really really like??? Alright she thought… good direction to start with…what am I like?



She noted few bullet points:

Sweet

Smiling

Loves arts

Creative

Slightly short tempered…

Balanced person

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Hell No, this is not a matrimonial ad page…. Alright then… on I go…let me try and make sense….

I don’t want options…I want answers…I don’t want possibilities… I want circumstances…I hate contemplating… I like agreeing…I hate dilemma I like decisions…

Might someone help me do it…I want to learn more…I want to learn it one more time…Powers of decisions… that make you feel satisfied… I want to experience one…

I like balancing… I like peace… the soothing music of rains makes me serene…

The more I share… the more I gain (not weight …: O)…its gives me pleasure beyond words can spare…you start a topic and leave rest to me… then I can take you through all its ups and downs…talk for hours and still say … you know what, there is so much I want to tell you about!!! Talk less listen more... Mom says too… but what to do? Can’t help… the Libran nose can hardly stop poking…

You ask me whether u r fat???? I would say …. Well, best part is u r looking great today… not this diplomatic every time… you do something wrong and ask me whether you were right... I would say you are grown up now… but then, if you coax me further and a honest reply is what you seek….I would say maybe you should reconsider your stand…I won’t call spade a spade…but neither would I call it a magic wand….making justice at each step is what I am born for!!!

Money is important…it gives security and balance….but spending it the way you want, gives meaning to your hard earned money. If I go to mall, Yes I spend…how much? Well never kept a tab of it…dressing to the detail is my forte…accessories, footwear everything should be coordinated… well, yes coordination is my other name!!!

Things happen my way and I am content... planned things take place and I get confident…but when everything seems different…no plan works out…no decision is right… gloominess phases in and my demons surround me. I don’t like them, for they make me weak..I want to knuckle them…kill them…shoot them… but they keep growing stronger…this is the point where I need someone who could see me through this…fortunately  I have people with me…they like me... they adore me.. They love me…they respect me…and life becomes manageable…

You criticize me... and I won’t take it nicely…you explain me and I would admire you throughout my life…I get influenced so don’t  try and shuffle my mind thousand times… you may piss me off that way …

A healthy amalgamation of style and panache…. I can hardly bore you…look in my eyes and you will be mesmerized …look to what I talk and you will be intrigued… they don’t call me party person for anything…they don’t call me live wire for anything…

Get me on an activity and I would be one amongst the buddies…get me to a candle light dinner…and you would see me blushing…get me to a movie theatre and you will have to keep an extra handkerchief ready…

I see dreams…I live them… I make characters that forever live a part of me…some dreams transcend into reality and I am overjoyed…others don’t see light of day …but then who cares …I forget those dreams the moment I wake up…

More than gifts, affection wins me… (Not that I don’t take gifts... of course I love taking them…) but I can sniff the fallacy the moment I look into your eyes…so beware… if you don’t mean it don’t say you love me forget about gift…well I won’t kill you… c’mon who wants to go to jail…but respect once gone is hardly a retake shot!!! Be true to yourself… and I would be all coy in your arms… dreamy to the core …romance is something which you will never have to teach me... have faith and I can move mountains for you… with that dialogue now you know why I am called dreamy and romantic to the core!!!

“Moments are never special... you ought to make them one…” I live by this… walk by this… survive by this…so, don’t worry about surprises there will be plenty… of course they would be pleasant!!! And receiving surprises… well, it’s my favorite past time :)

I love being with people… I need them... my emotional design collapses with desertion and loneliness… I need strong arms that can protect, embrace and hug…I need a smile daily to make believe that things are fine…Don’t worry, I am not that complicated …whatever I ask you to do I would do that 10 times more for you…you ask for promise??? I give you my word..!!! Life is not easy I know…but I try and maintain balance that I am an expert at!!!

At decision making... let me falter sometimes… don’t expect me to take razor sharp and crystal decisions … give me my time and I would come into my own… but it’s okay yaar I just take more time to gather information for that decision…simple!!!

I forever ask God to Give me that power …I need it right now... than any other time in my life….Just once in my life I want to be sure…I want to be certain… I want to be bang on….My decision is right… my decision is fine… let somebody tell me that this is something that was always in my sight...well I know what I want… but far too many routes makes the story long…and I don’t know which route is better… which is clear.. Which one is dear and which one is to fear!!!

Husshhh!!! She said… so this is what I am..!!!! Gosh….. 2 full pages of word document…!!!! Okay so is this really me? Or whatever I wrote before??? But now, I guess bullet points are easy to analyze and help take decision… but what about this description?? Maybe I can ask him... who among these am I? Maybe… It’s high time...!!! Alright….I should only decide…



But then….bullet points…. Yeah maybe…



Naah… the description is bang on….

Aargh!!!! Maybe I should think over this after sometime... or should I directly ask him???

Forget...maybe the answer will pop up just like that...maybe I should go have a coffee and think over this... oh yes I didn't write in description that I love coffee....hmmm that means description is right... hmmm maybe...!!!

So I am indecisive huh!!!!  so he wanted to say that I am indecisive??? Of course not... I can take decisions... maybe coffee first...!!!!









P.S:- no intentions to hurt any Libran person…its one from the series I am writing on zodiacs and the people…so if any coincidence found with any person dead or alive it’s okay.. Be considerate to them….Being Libran is not a joke!!!!

P.S2:- everything here is what I have observed in most of the Librans I have met till date... there can be exceptions....so plz dont search for my head...