Monday, May 16, 2011

55: Its called..."Boond-a-Bandi"

Weather and climate in general can definitely make or break your mood... your zeal and your overall well being to survive through the day...

Baked through the May heat with throats parched to get the taste of monsoon, Mumbai indeed suffers the worst when it comes to May!!! And when another 15 days of May are still left, one never expects any change in the heating schedule of the month... but today is a different day... so different that it made me to start scribbling when I am absolutely at loss of words for quite few days now...

6.15 am alarm goes off... and rubbing my dull, still heavy with sleep eyes, I looked out of the small glass pane near my  bed, expecting fully lit up day due to long day-cycle of summers, but I was very pleasantly surprised to see a slightly dark, cloudy and pleasant morning outside...!!! It gave me feel good factor early in the morning...!!! Sitting in the window seat of the bus the morning breeze didn’t seem more pleasing than today.... there was no sun on the horizon..!!! Usually I would have slept off in the bus, but today I thought of listening to music and I can say, that today has been by far that day when I have thoroughly enjoyed my travel to office..!!!

With absolutely no mood to work in office, what with Monday blues adding to my manager’s woes...it was a perfect setting to read some blogs while sipping through the morning cuppa of coffee...!!! The afternoon stroll down the Powai hills (oh, didn’t I tell my office building is on a small hillock... amidst the busiest city of India-Mumbai) was mesmerising... with cool breeze...slight drizzle...smell of earth...and KK crooning Pal in my ears...!!! It was a perfect moment..!!!! My best friend from college who is a typical north Indian... used to call this type of drizzling as “boond-a-bandi”...and somehow I belted out to one of my colleague-“wow... mast boond-a-bandi hai yaar...” he couldn’t understand what I meant by it...but I had a huge smile on my face... and coincidently...her name is Megha !!! :)




One song that I m listening again n again this day is....”Jane kya chahe mann bawra...” A perfect song for my taste to a day like this...would be listening to it at least 10 more times.... :) 



http://www.in.com/music/search.php?searchstr=jaane%20kya%20chahe%20mann%20bawra&type=song 



 Hope this day is leaving every Mumbaikar with content to some extent...happy rainy days to everyone..!!!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

54: I am selfish....

I was selfish...I wanted it all...

A smiling glimpse ...an assuring hug...
A tender care...a smiling cheer...
A watchful hand...an unadulterated faith...
One daily prayer...and one daily tear...

And then I met you...
Yes I was still selfish... I wanted it all...

Your first morning thought.... your good night dream...
Your teasing face... your personal space...
Your strong clutched hands ....your loving caring arms...
The worry on your forehead...the concern in your heart...
The happiness in your smile...the sunshine in your every mile...
Your funny language accent...the friends that you made...
Your true blood relations... and above all your unassuming self...

I thought I had got you...
Clearing the clouds of doubt...I faced it...
I knew ... it was you...someone who was real and true...
Although you had grey shades that made you ... YOU...

There I was standing... with my barriers collapsed...
Waiting to be taken in arms...and to be told ‘you are mine...’
It seemed fairytale...yet I believed it was true...
For... I always thought I had got you...

Yes I was selfish... I wanted it all...
Never in my life had I doubted that one day it will be all be gone...

My heart was broken... shattered in thousand pieces...
For I meant a buddy to you...and never your princess...
I cried whole day... I cried whole night...
Telling you I am ok... although nothing was right...

I wanted to shout... I wanted to cry...
I wanted to hurt you... but don’t know why I didn’t try...
My girls asked me... to question you...
To ask you... to confront you...
But all I could see was that one twinkle in your eye...
It was clear to me... that very far was I...
Since then... I m not on good terms with God...
I am unhappy with him... for he knew it all along...

I think I am still selfish...even today I want it all....

Smile on your face... joy on your lips...
Your flourishing life...your amazing health...
Your rising success... your shining happiness....
Although it is evident that...someone else is your princess...!!!

I can feel God asking me sometimes
’Why now??? Even after all this’
I don’t think I am answerable to him...
But...maybe ... because I am still selfish...!!!

(its a personal creation, refrain from illegal copying of the contents. Its my serious try at writing poetries... do leave back your feedback...it will be much appreciated... :D)

(http://verne10.wordpress.com/2011/02/23/i-am-selfish/)

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Life is not what happens... life is how you make it happen...!! Thats my favorite quote... not because it gives away anything about my real character but it just gives me a better hope to know that I am here because of how I made it happen... and I will be at some other place also only because how I would make it happen...!!! But I do make mistakes.. lot of them... at times I learn from them, at all the others I just forget the episode and get ready to commit some new ones...!! Life is interesting because of I have really spicier people in them... and I come here and blabber around when the spice gets too much to handle.. :P:P